Get Over It

So, I had a screwed up childhood, and here I am. I had a choice to keep wallowing in all the self-pity or make the best out of it all. Don't get me wrong, my choice was suicide, but I never got it right. It just landed me in the psychiatric hospital, in a room with rubber. Not exactly how I wanted to continue my life. So, as I mentioned, I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder at some point, depression at another, anorexia, and so forth. All of these manifestations of what I had been through. I remember making the conscious choice to be something else. I did not want to be a messed up person. It was my life, and I had to live it, despite my past. Thankfully, I had many people in my life that loved me and helped me through this difficult process. It's kind of hard to move through life when you don't know who you are and are too depressed to care. Then on top of it, you are starving yourself to death, while drinking as much as you can before passing out. I suppose that was the hardest thing about going to AA-introducing myself. Hi, I'm Zippy, and I'm a Co-dependent, depressed, self-destructive, skinny biatch, have no self-identity, etc...alcoholic. Jeez, it took forever. LOL. My point is is that if I made it this far in my life, so can anyone. None of us are unique. Live until you can not live anymore. Let go of the pain, it only hurts you.