Borderline Personality Disorder

I was at one time diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. Basically, I was messed up as a person. What did this really mean? Border Personality Disorder is a chronic, long-term problem that affects a person's self-esteem, relationships, work...etc. BPD people are very self destructive with tendencies of drinking, eating disorders,and drug abuse. Many who suffer from this illness are victimes of child abuse. There is an increased sense of abandonment, and people with this disease will do anything to not experience this act. Relationships are very intense, love to hate constantly. There is only black and white to be seen, no in between. All is good or all is bad. Self-identity is lost which complicates the situation. Other symptoms include feelings of emptiness and boredom, frequent displays of anger, impulsiveness with money, drugs, sex, binge eating, shoplifting, problems with being alone, recurrent acts of self-violence such as cutting, suicide attempts, etc.

Counseling and sometimes hospitalization is needed as an on-going treatment process. I am here to tell you that it is possible to get better. I still do not do well with relationships, but my relationship with myself is much better. I know who I am today which is great progress. It is all a journey, but the hopelessness that I used to feel becomes less and less as time goes by. If you or someone you know experiences the signs of Borderline Personality Disorder, seek help immediately. There is always hope for those who choose to help themselves.